And so it begins!

So we start our second IVF cycle tomorrow.
Step one? Something my hubby and I jokingly call “A peek and a poke.”
It’s not nearly as pornographic as it sounds. Just an exam and bloodwork to make sure all is well physically and chemically.
And I find I’m excited and more than just a little nervous. I keep thinking “what if we go through all of this and it doesn’t work.” Heck, what if it does work a bit too well and we end up with a bumper crop of kids?
So many niggling doubts and worries mixed with flashes of hope.
Yet…
I watch my daughter jabber to her toys and cradle the huge Mickey Mouse we were swindled into buying at Disney. She’s trying to sing her ABC’s and stacking blocks as she sits bathed in the shadow cast by the setting sun.
She’s lovely.
How my heart longs for another to join her on the floor tossing blocks and cradling toys.
But, if for whatever reason this doesn’t work and we’re unable to adopt, if this is the only child we were meant to have…what a gift to treasure.
She is my heartbeat.

Advertisements

About domesticpolichick

My life is a crazy jumble of sitcom-level domestic hijinks and fast-paced political reporting in the nation's capital. Breastfeeding while doing a phone interview with a senator...yep, I've done it and no, I won't reveal the name. Toddler calling a member of Congress on the cell..yeah, that really did happen. Pregnant in high heels on Capitol Hill trying to chase down a particularly grumpy senator, yeah...that was nuts. But what can I say? I'm just one domestic polichick trying to figure out the work-life balance.
This entry was posted in In the Oven and tagged , . Bookmark the permalink.

One Response to And so it begins!

  1. Gina W. says:

    Wow! Didn’t know this! Good luck with it all!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s